I Don't Understand

Bah, I don't understand. Lately I've been in bad moods consistently. I have no urge to do anything constructive and as the day goes on and on I get grumpier and grumpier. Partly I think its the heat. The office gets ridiculously hot and there is nothing we can do about it. There is no air conditioning or temperature control. I just sit there and bake. I know I don't respond well to heat and sitting in it for 8 hours a day makes me go crazy. Its rare that I don't leave work with a headache.

The other day I must have gotten bitten by something cause now my right knee is swollen. It doesn't itchy very much, but it hurts. Everytime I move it, it hurts. I can barely walk. I can't straighten my knee cause its much too painful. I've put some antibacteria cream on it, but it doesnt really make it hurt less. Its so frustrating. When I was in Victoria I didn't have allergies or any of these types of reactions, but now that I'm back in Vancouver, I'm constantly having reactions to miscellaneous things and bites. I even have a nose spray now.

This heat makes me so sleepy. All I want to do is sleep, but I never get enough.

Life has been draining. Something needs to change and fast. I feel like my soul is disappearing, and I've become under the control of everyone else...

Any words to inspire me?